enjoying the emo-ness

emo....

i dont wana be emo but i just cant help it. i just hate the feeling of being ignored. i already did all i can to help ppl. i just hope to receive a little help when i need it. thats all. is dat so hard??

haiz. all bcoz im so stupid. i cant blame anyone. i have no knowledge abt the design. im totally blank abt it. its not dat i dun wana work on it. i have no knowledge at all!!! what should i do?? nobody is willing to help me. sad nia.......=(

haiz. what should i do next?? i dono wat kind of person should i be now. i tried to change but wat do i get?? arrgghh!!!!!

just a little update

just a little update about me recently
well, abt the maths test, the results wasnt so bad after all
hehe...i've been worrying too much i guess....

and no more labs for this sem BUT the circuit we ned to design ourself is enuf to kill me
can someone just kill me now?? i feel like dying now
i dun wana face this
i am totally blank when it comes to circuit design
hoping for miracle to happen

once again, the feeling has came back to me
i hate it yet i love it
i feel stupid sometimes, i just dun have the courage to tell anyone
sometimes i feel frustrated thinking abt it
but when i lose it, i feel empty inside
how??
what should i do??
i wish i have someone i can tell to
i feel so dumb now....
i hope to wake up one day forgetting abt all those things
i wana turn back time and stop myself frm getting into this feeling
i wana start all over when i never saw or noe ur existence

k la...this is abt all abt me lately....
pls pray dat miracle will happen to my circuit design and oso me