5 more days to D-day!!

arrgghh!! i only have 5 more days to the opening of my final exam? what?? haih! sad ar. din study much. keep on dreaming and my soul keep on flying out of my notes. lazy...and sleepy.....

sometimes do i expect too much? yea. some small things can make me happy on that day but somehow ruined. all bcoz i expect too much frm u. i just couldnt help it. its like going from heaven to hell in a split second. causes dissappointment over n over again. haih. shouldnt think too much d. just let it be.....

have to get back to studies!! haha!! gambateh!!! =)

happenings

haha. i havent been blogging since i dono when. been busy with projects and logbooks and reports. never ending. but now im free frm those but finals are near. my 1st paper will be on the 10th of sept. scary!!

ok. let me update a bit of myself. ermmm...somehow i've been thru ups and downs during this period. i've been down coz of some obstacles and conflicts in the progress of the group project. but at last, everything was successful. phew!

the up part will be a bit of changes in my life and circle of frens. which makes me happy dat i noe dat there is someone out there that cares abt me. i've also been down bcoz of the changes. emo marathon. =__=" but i still can bare with it. maybe i just wasnt ready for the changes but now im ok.

addition to the down part, someone has been making me look so ugly. i din do anything to him/ her but i keet receiving critics from him/her. some ppl can be so damn fake. he/she would be so nice to u in front u and the next minute, talking bad things abt u. i've been helping this particular person whn he/she was in need and had no frens to help out. im not saying dat i want a payback or something but i dont expect to receive critics frm dat person evrytime im not around. yes. everytime. now he/she has frens and talk bad behind me. imso  pissed! what kind of person is dat? he/she can criticise abt every part of me. even abt my fren. this is shit! i feel like shouting in front of his/ her face and tell him/her to F*** OFF!!!!

aish. there is no need to be emo abt this person. hahahah!!! exam is near. im in study mode now. no time for nonsense. hahaha!!!

i guess i will end here. will update more after final exams. oh no!! after finals will be internship!! arrgghh!!! no holidays until cny d. sad....sob sob....ok la. cabut first. haha!!

its fate and its true

haha! i finally believe dat i cannot simply change fate. no matter how hard i try. i still cant change it. now i admit dat i was wrong whn i tried to change it. =__="

haih. im a bit dissappointed but im ok. just a bit upset about it. this time i have to believe in fate. everything happens for a reason. everything is fated.

wake up!!! study time!! project time!!!

things change and ppl change but im still standing at the starting point. when will i wake up??

forever is impossible

things wont stay forever. indeed, nothing is forever. friendship, love, luck, and many more things in life. there is nobody to blame but this is the truth. this is how the life cycle goes on.

however, there is still a way to change it. its just a matter how humans act. for example, when u start to noe a new fren, u might think he/she is so nice. u plan to stay as good frens wit him/her forever. but as time goes by, u start to get to noe him/her better. u start to only see the bad points and forget abt how many good things he/she did to u. til then, the is the crucial part, to choose to accept or not to accept. some ppl choose to run away and find a new fren while some choose to tell u what u did wrongly and change it together.

how many true frens do u have so far?

i alwiz the one to be blame when things happen. is it bcoz the way i was born? it makes ppl wanna blame me? or i dont have the right to emo sometimes and stay quiet at a side? do u think i like to be emo? things just happen and i just cant explain to u all. sometimes i just wanna stay alone and think by myself. does dat mean im angry or something? arrgghh!!! sometimes i stay alone when im emo. and do u all noe why? coz i dun wana say things dat i wont be able to take it back. so, i choose to keep quiet. i dont wanna hurt anybody.

from the bottom of my heart, i treat everyone around me as good frens. but i dont think everyone think the same.

haih. i just wished i could turn back time. i wished i didnt have done so much. i regret doing so much. maybe i should keep quiet from now on and go back to how i used to be. talk less. laugh less. yes. i should! i dont wanna face any of this problems anymore. just let time heal everything.

im not ready yet.....

haha. today is the 4th day of class. im not ready to handle this sem yet. its only the 1st week but we already have a proposal and a weekly log to hand up. WHAT??!!

this sem is really goin to be crazy. luckily lab sessions are not starting anytime soon, FUH!!! haha!! im not ready to study yet!!! i still want holidays!!!!

financial management...hmmmm.....i still have no idea how am i going to handle this subject. why la?? accounting for non accounting student!! what a joke!!

today the same lecturer laughed at me name again. he told me dat my name sounded like a guy's name since last sem but i didnt noe he would announce it loudly in class today. gosh!! i tot he misunderstood bcoz of my handwriting in my logbook last sem but its not!! its about my name!!!

lecturer : lim poh chin?
me : *hands up* me!
lecturer : u ar? i tot its a guy u noe....
me : =__="

just laugh!!!! which part sound like a guy's name?? can someone tell me?? anyway, i just LOVE my name and i dont think it sounds like a guy's name. just say whatever u want la!! i dont care!!

holidays ending soon

today is wednesday already. holidays ending soon. very soon. im starting class next monday. and the crazy things is have class from 8am to 8pm on monday. this is crazy. of course there will be 2-3hrs of intervals between class. =__="

going to face another crazy sem. this holiday is way too short. i havent enjoyed enough. i only started to enjoy yesterday. haha!! been worrying abt the results. luckily i passed all the subjects. i was kinda worried dat i will fail operation management. but luckily i didnt. fuh!!
but this sem i have to handle financial management. oh!! just kill me!! arrgghh!!!

i still have no idea on the group design project. haiz....projects again. hectic + crazy sem i guess........

i dont wana end this holiday yet!!! isshh!!

holidays!!!

yay!! holidays at last!! i've been waiting since cny holz. haha!! after a few hectic weeks, i finally can sit down and relax.

its getting kinda bored at home. especially the weather. arrgghh!!! its killing me.

HEY!! its boring!!!! but i dont wana start clasa anytime soon. haha!! im crazy i noe!!! i should enjoy the boring-ness while i still can. next sem wil be even more hectic. i wil have even more pimples. haha!!!!

nothing much to update. indulging myself to some nice korean songs now.k la. enjoy ur holz my frens and good luck to those still having exams!!! fighting!!!! =D

no explanations needed

hey guys!!! its been quite a long time since i updated this blog....again.....
well, there is a lot to update but i might just cut it short. since its over. i dun wana care abt it much anyway.

1st, im so damn happy dat my little project worked. thx to all my tai lous ya. frm designing to testing to fabricating to drilling to soldering...haha!! i din do much. but my gang for helping me so much. ice cream ya......dono if they read this anot. hehe =)

here are the pics of my circuit board. my first board! muahahahah!!

haiz. next, i will be studying for finals d. 2 more weeks to finals. but today is just not the day. im just too lazy.....what should i do??

i've been really bad to that irritating person. am i cruel? but i just dont feel like being nice after wat that person said abt me and after wat that person had done. ppl might think dat im cruel but i dun wana explain much. ppl who understand me will know. if i explain too much, ppl might think dat im trying to make myself look less ugly. so, just let it be. ppl who understand me will know why i am like dat. k k.....stop dat and study for finals d!! hehe!! good luck for those who r facing exams too. lets gambateh!!!!

misunderstand + misunderstands......=__="

haha!! it was a misunderstand after all. all bcoz of some ppl who like to twist and turn the story and tell it to others. WTF!!! i look down on this kind of ppl.

would u just shut up?? i kenot stand ur mouth!! keep talking when nobody wants to listen!!!

im not gonna let it be like this. i hate u!!! just wait n see. u will get double frm me!!!

thru this, i found true ppl. yes. ppl who stil care abt frenship and how u treat them. thx guys for the helping hand when i need it and sorry for causing so much trouble!! hehe!!

April Fool

haiz. no mood to play on April Fool's day today....

nvm. this world is damn realistic. i noe now. i cant rely on ppl for the rest of my life. i ned to help myself from now onwards. i ned to!! im not giving up. thx to the ppl who r willing to give a helping hand when i ned it. and no thanks to the ppl who kicked me out. LOL!!!

its ok. no hard feelings. i learned a valueble lesson. i can handle this. i will not give up. lets gambateh!! =)

enjoying the emo-ness

emo....

i dont wana be emo but i just cant help it. i just hate the feeling of being ignored. i already did all i can to help ppl. i just hope to receive a little help when i need it. thats all. is dat so hard??

haiz. all bcoz im so stupid. i cant blame anyone. i have no knowledge abt the design. im totally blank abt it. its not dat i dun wana work on it. i have no knowledge at all!!! what should i do?? nobody is willing to help me. sad nia.......=(

haiz. what should i do next?? i dono wat kind of person should i be now. i tried to change but wat do i get?? arrgghh!!!!!

just a little update

just a little update about me recently
well, abt the maths test, the results wasnt so bad after all
hehe...i've been worrying too much i guess....

and no more labs for this sem BUT the circuit we ned to design ourself is enuf to kill me
can someone just kill me now?? i feel like dying now
i dun wana face this
i am totally blank when it comes to circuit design
hoping for miracle to happen

once again, the feeling has came back to me
i hate it yet i love it
i feel stupid sometimes, i just dun have the courage to tell anyone
sometimes i feel frustrated thinking abt it
but when i lose it, i feel empty inside
how??
what should i do??
i wish i have someone i can tell to
i feel so dumb now....
i hope to wake up one day forgetting abt all those things
i wana turn back time and stop myself frm getting into this feeling
i wana start all over when i never saw or noe ur existence

k la...this is abt all abt me lately....
pls pray dat miracle will happen to my circuit design and oso me

OH!!!

OH!!! lol! nothing special la....

its been 2 weeks since i updated this blog. well, in the past 2 weeks, many things happened. i had been angry, happy, sad, excited, frustrated, stressful...etc..........

first, i kinda screwed my maths test. haiz....sad....i ran out of time to solve the last question!!! tak puas hati!!!!

next, rushing for report. haha! dats wat u get frm not doin ur homework early....rushed like mad til 2am den woke up at 5am the next morning. =__="

haiz...another thing is, (to that somebody) why do u keep giving me hope when i was abt to give up?? i hate dat. i really wished u noe what's in my mind.....arrgghh!!!!!! benci benci benci!!!!

and i have a fren in class who keep criticising me, u din ned to be dat straight forward ok? although i admit all the weaknesses u mentioned but do u think i want it to be that way? i cant help it ok? I AM NOTHING BUT ME!!!! i wont change just bcoz of wat u said. these few days, i had stopped showing anger to dat fren but that doesnt mean im not angry anymore. i just dun wana make things complicated.

ok. dats enuf update abt me i guess.....lol!

Happy Valentine's Day!!

Happy V Day to all my frens!! love u guys so much!! although i dont celebrate it but i just wana wish u guys!! hehe!!

2nd week in college after cny break. we r stil in cny mood ok? no mood to study. alwiz thinking of something else during lecture. well, that may be for me only. lol! yea. this sat we will have a maths test. waa!!! counted in finals le. takut takut.......

gotta get on the study mode soon. no. not soon but NOW!!!! lol. tmr is a public holz. i shall practice my maths. haha. gambateh!!!!

ur still not erased. when exactly can i erase u???

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!

Happy CNY!!!! It's finally here!!!

haha! so full after the reunion dinner and so tired after playing wit my nephew!!  kids.....lol!

Happy CNY to all my frens!!! Have a great time!!!!

1 more day!!!

yo yo yo!! after a tiring day today, im finally left with 1 more day of lecture tmr morning. den im off for cny holz!!! damn excited. but tmr have to wake up early for 8am class again.....=__="

nvm la. 2 more hrs nia den can enjoy cny holz d. my classmates plan to ponteng tmr. but if everyone ponteng den nobody will attend class le???

haha!! my neck hurts. i cant stand long hrs of lecture having to tilt my head up to look at the screen. haiz...the pain just wont go away!! maybe i will recover after this cny holz. hopefully......

haiz...im feeling something stopping me from being happy but i dono what is it....siao!!!!!

anyway, get the CNY mood goin yo!!!

CNY!!!

LOL!! no no. not CNY yet. haha! cny is just around the corner and i just cant wait!! maybe abt 8 more days i guess?? sorry. i dono how to count days eh...=__="

yoh....the weather is getting extremely hot out there. making me damn lazy to get to college but while im at home im just too lazy to study either. hehe!!

today, should i consider myself lucky? coz i discovered a new thing again. hmmmm....maybe....ahhh!!! whatever!!!!!

cny faster come. i wana meet up wit all my dearest frens!! i wana wear my new clothes!! i wana wear my new shoes!!! i wana eat cny cookies!!! (ooppss...actually, im in the process of eating d...haha!!)

k la. stop here. gonna take a nap b4 goin to college later coz its gonna be another boring lecture again...... ZZzZZZzzzzzzZZZ..................

if only.....

if only u could understand what i was trying to do...
if only u could see why i was angry...
if only u could see thru me...

if only...words to create a lot of posibilities dat can only make u feel better but it cant change what had happened.

if only i could stop thinking abt u.....

this is what makes me frustrated when i think abt it. im trying hard to forget but it seems harder when u keep pushing urself to forget it. i keep telling myself i have no time to think abt this, i gotta get my mind straight and do something useful but i just cant. when can i really erase u frm my mind?

neck pain!!!!!!

new hair!!! yay!! i finally decided to cut my fringe again. coz its hard to manage. yoo!! i look like a mangkuk now. hehe!

tmr morning's class cancelled coz lecturer on mc. but stil have to go for 2pm eh class. swt.........

haiz. have severe neck pain n back pain. maybe i sprained my neck due to my heavy bag + long hrs of sitting during lecture. back pain? i have no idea where it came from. hope it will get better soon.

today........how should i describe my mood? happy? not exactly. sad? not totally sad too. haiz....siao d lo.............................

STOP!! STOP!! STOP!!

im half dead right now....
so damn tired
not bcoz of having many classes but its abt the interval between classes. siao!! nvm abt dat. we cant change it anymore. just have to accept it.

1 more things is, haha! i finally get to noe the exact answer. although it din come out right from ur mouth but i noe everything. i can see it. i just gonna stop everything right now. concentrate on studies! i noe i alwiz say dat and i never do it well. this time, i promise myself to let it go without tears. my heart feels like being stabbed right now but i noe its just for a period of time. i will get over it. i promise. all i ned is time right now.
i just dun have the mood to prepare the slides for tmr's presentation. dont feel like doing anything right now. sorry to my group members if i dun do it nicely. today is just not the right day.

haiz..im sad...depressed....tired....no motivation....lazy...........................................

tmr is the day

officially starting class tmr. haha! u ppl wil sure say me siao but im not. i just dont like to waste time at home doin nothing. i get sick easily staying at home like this. no special reason ok?

hmmm....been listening to B2ST lately. haha. im loving the unit songs they released and also donghae&ryeowook's song.

i hope i will be able to sleep tonight. it happens very often. i dont have anything to think but i just cant sleep. just me staring at the ceiling thinking of abolutely NOTHING. dont ask me why. im looking for the reason too. ya. maybe i have some penyakit gila.

wish me luck!!

counting down days to CNY......i cant wait!!

lastly, a picture of Yoseob & Junhyung from B2ST. arent they cute?

yoo yoo!!!

im here again!!

haha!! will be starting class next monday. so, im enjoying these last 3 days of my holz. its 5pm now and time passed so fast today. haiz. nvm. goin to class is better than staying at home doin nothing.

hehe!! will be starting cny break on the 31st january. means cny eve eve eve. haha!! class resume on 7th feb.

loving B2ST more n more!!! ahhhh!!!!

new year, new beginning

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!!!

its a new year!!! a new beginning!! we've gained another year!!! lets celebrate!!!