rotting....

im starting to rot at home or should i say part of me has already rotten. lol. it's damn boring but i feel kinda lazy to go out coz of the hot weather in the afternoon. it gets bored until i start thinking nonsense sometimes. ahhh!! stop it. it's impossible!! u noe it! so stop it!!

i had this dream 2 nights in a row. yes. the same dream, at the same place and the same person. but the situation is kinda different. why?? im thinking too much abt it. (suspecting that it's a someone rite? it's a secret!! haha!!)  but i swear i tried not to think when i sleep but it appeared in my dream. yes. i admit i want some of the nice parts in the dream to come true and the bad to not come true. but, oh well, this is reality. things wont go the way u want it to be. so face it!! it's gonna turn out bad. worst than u can imagine. so, stop thinking!!

help me!! im rotting and thinking nonsense!! lol. sabar sabar.....

1st day of a new month. 30 more days and we are ending 2010. so fast? this year was like a drama. faced ups and downs. i fall and got up. i cried and in the end to find dat im such a fool. but im glad to have great frens around me to hear me speak my heart when i need them. the best gift in my life will be my family and frens i have. i should be grateful.

what have passed will be history. what's important is now and future. am i right? i shouldn't be going round and round the past that gives me heartache. i should forget what's bad and anticipate for what's coming next.

why am i being so emotional?? lol. ok. i noe im being so long-winded. alright. i'll stop here.